Empathy: What the World Needs

     Being what everyone else needs can be an amazing thing. There are days where I feel invincible, like there is no problem I can’t solve. Then there are days where I just don’t want to get out of bed because I feel utterly drained and the idea of dealing with people makes my whole being ache. These are the highs and lows of being an Empath. I feel the world and that helps me change it.
     Today I don’t feel on top of the world; today I don’t want to be what the rest of the world needs. Doing the Celebrate YOUR Life event took a lot out of me and I haven’t really been able to recover because I’ve been trying to get the rest of life back in order. This weekend I just couldn’t keep going. I’ve hidden in the darkness of my room making as little human contact as possible. Why? Being what makes everyone else happy is hard and I’m tired.
     I can make people feel at ease just by walking in a room. I can make people laugh and smile when they feel like crying. I can help people work through the turmoil in their minds. I can take the edge off someone’s pain just by hugging them. Complete strangers trust me. People I’ve never met before feel safe enough to tell me their life stories. The hardest of masks crack and let the tears flow through because I’m there. The darkest of secrets are shared without request.  Why? Because I’m an empath and people are drawn to the healing that having an empath can provide. It’s a one way street. I don’t just listen, I feel. I absorb. I feel the emotions of others as if they were my own. I walk into a room and feel the energy that everyone in it puts off. I help people feel better because I take whatever burdened them. It’s wonderful and awful at the same time. I enjoy making others feel better but it wears me down. I have to find outlets for the extra emotions I collect. Sometimes I just can’t keep going.
    There are times where I absolutely love being able to do all those things. It makes some parts of life easier. Other times, like today, I wish I could give the job to someone else. Being the one to make everyone else happy and keep the world running means there’s not always someone there for me. When I’m completely drained and exhausted in every way I think there is possible I want to isolate but I don’t want to be alone. I’m human. I want nothing and everything at the same time. When you’ve collected the burdens of all those around you where do you lay your burden when it gets too heavy? On the ground next to you. You’ll pick it up after you rest. It may take a day or two.
    Don’t worry I’ll be back to my chipper life saving self soon. The world keeps turning therefore I must keep going. I just want the world to know we aren’t all perfect. We aren’t all happy, laughing, optimistic wonder women all the time. Even those who make the world a better place need someone to make their world a better place from time to time. We all need each other so remember to treat others as you wish to be treated. You could be what that person needs today.

TTYS,

Aleena